Robiaatul.

427; Truth.

2011-11-28T01:38:00.001+08:00

I miss you and I've been thinking of you non-stop. But I'm gonna let this go, I just can't hold on much longer. I'm not the strong girl that everybody used to know anymore. I wish nothing but the best for you. Be happy forever and find your happiness soon. Like they say, "if it's meant to be yours, it'll return to you soon." goodbye, xo.

426.

2011-11-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

I wanna watch sunset, go for stargazing and end the day watching sunrise. with you.

[LYRICS]
What Makes You Beautiful - One Direction.

You're insecure, don't know what for
You're turning heads when you walk through the do-o-or
Don't need make-up - to cover up
Being the way that you are is eno-o-ough

Everyone else in the room can see it
Everyone else but yo-ou

Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip you're hair gets me overwhelmed
But when you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tell
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful!
If only you saw what I can see
You'll understand why I want you so desperately
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful!
Oh oh
That's what makes you beautiful!

So c-come on, you got it wrong
To prove I'm right I put it in a so-o-ong
I don't know why, you're being shy
And turn away when I look in to your eye eye eyes

Everyone else in the room can see it
Everyone else but yo-ou

Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip you're hair gets me overwhelmed
But when you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tell
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful!
If only you saw what I can see
You'll understand why I want you so desperatley
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful!
Oh oh
That's what makes you beautiful!

Na na na na na na naaaa na na,
Na na na na na na.
Na na na na na na naaaa na na,
Na na na na na na.

Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip you're hair gets me overwhelmed
But when you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tell
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful!

Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip you're hair gets me overwhelmed
But when you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tell
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful!
If only you saw what I can see
You'll understand why I want you so desperatley
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful!
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful!
Oh oh
That's what makes you beautiful!

If only somebody sings this for me. I'll be over the moon. ^-^

425; I'm that person everyone replaces after a while.

2011-10-08T19:35:00.000+08:00

Hey. It seems like I'm an emo nemo these days, and I have no idea what I to do to be happy again. It seems like, I've changed but I have no idea whether I've changed to the better or worst. All I know is that, ever since I know you, I've become very dependent to you, and it felt as though I can't live without you and eventually I lost myself in this process. I hate being dependent on somebody as when they leave, I have no idea what to do anymore and it felt as though some part of me are missing. I hate how I am right now, but I have no idea what to do to make myself feel better other than going out with you or talking to you. What Callista told me was right, guys like you are all the same. Then when I'm trying my best to forget you, the dreams I have about you just make it all worst, making me miss and think of you more. But what can I do? All I can do is NOTHING. Because I know, hoping and wishing brings me nowhere else. Why do I even bother typing all these out? Oh, it just shows how much you really mean to me. Forget it, it won't make any difference. I've been waiting for your text message, but it'll never reach me. All the promises, all the things you said, was a bunch of lies. except for the part, you'll be the person I love now and in the near future because I do.
Okay, I get it. I'm good to be used, lied to and play with. Thank you for proving all these to me. I'm just someone that everybody replaces after a while. What's the point of prioritizing people when I don't mean anything to them? #noted.

424; Sometimes, you end up losing yourself trying to hold onto someone who doesn't care about losing you.

2011-09-14T22:45:00.001+08:00

So, after 2 months I've decided to update this space. So many things have happened recently. I've let go of what I'm not supposed to hold on and even know some new friends. Oh wait, did I make any new friends? I can't remember. But all I can remember is I've been spending lots of time with T-List, especially Laikei. Been going to flea market for the past 3 weeks for good deals and its awesome, changed my phone housing. But I guess, I'm starting to drift apart from certain people. Well, let's just let nature take its course. I have no idea how should I update this space. All I know is that I'm left with 19 days to N's and all I'm doing now is slacking #likeaboss instead of studying. I really got to find the motivation to study!!! I have no idea what to do. Should check out my facebook for updates! Or even better, twitter. Everyday, I'm tweeting. Best or what? After giving up on fandoms, I really have nothing better to do other than watch tv. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :D
July - September 2011 random pictures(not in order);

423.

2011-07-03T14:32:00.001+08:00

You wonder why I’m insecure? Because there are girls out there who look gorgeous without even trying. When they wake up they look like angels. When I wake up, I look like I just got out of a war. Those photogenic girls who look good in every photo. When someone takes a photo of me, my face looks half retarded. They don’t even need to dress nicely and they’ll still look good. How they can capture your attention just by walking past. I want to be able to do that.

422; I think its nearly a miracle for two people to like one another at the same time.

2011-06-27T20:22:00.001+08:00

Its as though I knew all of this is going to happen yet, I choose to ignore all that and get close to you leading myself to get hurt in the end. I thought I was strong enough to choose that path, strong enough to handle all of these, apparently I wasn't. All I can do now, is wish I didn't have chosen that path. But, there's no point crying over a spilled milk. Messed up feelings, all I can do is hope I'll wake up soon. Goodbye.

421; No matter how many times someone hurts you, you always forgive them. Some call it stupid. Others call it love.

2011-06-14T01:45:00.001+08:00

Hello. One update after a very long break, I suppose. I don't have the motivation to blog. Each time I come on the dashboard, I will just stare and look at the blank post thinking what I should do. So I've been working for the, hmmm, past 5 days. It is a fun job. I get to play with kids, earn money and learn new stuffs. (: not forgetting making new friends! But I guess I'm like a small kid. I need to "warm up" so I can get friendly and stuffs to people that I don't really know. If they don't approach me, I'll just sit there and be quiet. I've stopped approaching to people already :( and I have no idea why. Have I became anti-social? /sighs, I hope I can be more sociable, like how I used to be. What happen to me? Guess I learned that people keeps on leaving and coming back as and when they like, I gave up being sociable. I guess it must be this reason. Goodbye!!

420.

2011-05-21T01:17:00.001+08:00

If the world ever ends today, I wanna let you know I used to love you.
If the world ever ends today, I wanna let you know I've moved on.

But I won't have the courage to do so.

If the world ever ends today, I hope you'll remember me.
If the world ever ends today, I hope you'll remember how I used to be there for you all the time.

But I doubt I mean anything to you.

If the world ever ends today, I'll go in peace.

Cause apparently nobody cares.

419; The higher you build the walls around your heart, the harder you fall for someone who tears them down.

2011-05-19T19:55:00.000+08:00

Hello. So I finished Mid Year Examinations last week, and had all the results today. I failed humanities and mathematics. Apparently, I wasn't affected at all. I guess I'm probably use to being a failure in studies. But, surprisingly, I passed my Mother Tongue overall, pretty happy with it. :D but then again, I failed both paper 1 and 2. And I wasn't even affected, I really think I'm use to being a failure. I'm damn stupid. How did I even end up in 4N3, said to be the best class? Forget about studies. I suck at it. Anyways, mummy was hospitalised last Tuesday night, and I only knew it on Wednesday. I was very worried that time, Thank God, she's fine and discharged now. I really have no idea how to survive if something happened to mummy. She's everything to me, ♥.

I said that I'll forget you in no time, and I've done that. I guess that little special feeling is just "brother-sister" feeling like how I used to have in 2009. I was very foolish for holding on for 2 years, I suppose. I wish you all the best in everything. I hope you'll somehow remember me in your heart. I don't wanna be the only one thinking of the memories. Stay happy and last long (:

418. I’m at this point where I don’t know what I feel anymore.

2011-04-08T20:15:00.000+08:00

Time passes so fast, I can't catch up with it.

417.

2011-03-16T12:32:00.000+08:00

What Are Words - Chris Medina.
[Lyrics]

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close

416; Memories... are just a sweet reminder of the past and pain experienced.

2011-03-15T00:44:00.001+08:00

Looking back now, I just realised how much I've grown. Memories so precious, all the things I do, all the people I met, all the troubles I got into and everything. I've met different kind of people, some choose to stay, some choose to leave.

Primary School.

In primary school, I was so innocent, so happy, so vulgar. I think I'm a bitch. Jumping ships here and there, I don't even know what I'm doing back then. Miaoling, the greatest friend I had in primary school. Amaliah, Athilah, Lizah, Izzati was the greatest clique. Got close with Jingyuan only after primary school, surprisingly, we didn't drift but got closer than before. Aiman, Tin, Haikal and co, the best guy friends ever, the jokers the source of happiness in 6B'07. Now, I know why I couldn't let go of my primary school mates like how many people can. They're the source of my happiness back then. Without them, my life will just sucked huh?

Secondary School.

Got into Bedok South Secondary, I don't know whether I should be happy or should I be sad that I'm in the school. So many things happened in this school. Sometimes, I just regret being in this school. In Sec 1, I can't count how many troubles I got into. I'm that detestable huh? Thank God I found my good friends in this school, through all the troubles that brought us where we are now. Chelsia, Karmahn and Brigette. We've gone through many ups and downs in Sec 1s and 2s, we got into shits and stuffs. In the end, we "he hao" and become even greater friends. I don't know how to express myself... But I'm happy to know you guys. Sec 1 was the most memorable yet stupid year ever. Doing the most stupid thing ever, that is slitting of wrist. I regretted it, I really do. What was I back then? -.- Then having good "brothers" like Bingguang and Brian. I guess my life in Sec 1 was so childish, ok. Who's Sec 1 life ain't childish? Sec 2, got closer with Qikwang and gosh, I never did regret it. He's such a retard, lol. So many precious memories with 2E, was the best damn class ever. ♥ Sec 3 and 4? I have no comments. LOL.. Anyway from Sec 1-4, did I change a lot?

Outside.

Knowing Sistas and T-List was the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I know Sistas through Layting. I remembered the first time I met them(excluding Happy) at Tiong Bahru, it was so er, epic? Then we headed off to Town, for I have no reasons why. Went to eat at McDonalds, started hiding Alfred's bag and stuffs, sitting infront of Taka singing. It was damn fun, I also remembered that they were the ones that made me realised, not all friends come and go. Then I met Happy at Astons @ Plaza Singapura. After that we had lots of outings, shits happen and problem solved, had fun and stuffs.
T-List. I don't know how to describe it, cause I've done so before @ here. So take your time to read again? I love you guys for who you are ♥ I hope we'll forever be friends. I'm sorry if I ever did anything offending to you and didn't realised it before.

That's all. I don't know what I'm crapping. If you know good for you. :)

415; Sometimes the only way to hide the pain is to smile.

2011-03-11T23:41:00.002+08:00

Nothing goes right yet nothing seems wrong. I've decided to stop caring anymore. The more I care, the more I get hurt. I had enough of getting hurt. I'm going through what most 16 year old kids don't go through, and I have no choice but to suck it up to reality. No matter how hard I try to run away from reality, it just catches up and kick me from the back. Is this what life is? Or is it just because today just sucks naturally? I don't get it, all I want to do now is to shut myself up and be alone for awhile. I know its wrong to do so, but I just can't help it but feel like dying. My existence doesn't matter much anyway. Why bother about who's going to miss me man? No matter how hard I try, I fail. All I can do know is to fake a smile so everybody believes I'm happy. This way, nobody will ever ask why am I acting this way. Isn't that great?

414; Obliviate.

2011-03-01T21:12:00.001+08:00

I'd really wish I could erase you from my heart and mind, but apparently I can't.

Hi, do you read my blog everyday or? :O Well, school has been pretty hectic these days? Had tests today and yesterday. 2 more tomorrow. I seriously can't be bothered with all these anymore, its like I gave up on my studies. So much for telling my mum I'll work hard. She told me that if I work hard, I'll get a DSLR. But at this rate, I'm guessing I'll flunk my papers instead. Go to school to waste time, go to school to meet friends and go to school to have fun. I don't go to school to study, ok. Maybe a little bit but yeah, I don't give a damn already. Ok, goodbye.

413.

2011-02-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

Time can heal a broken heart. But time can also break a waiting heart.

412; I have a different way of caring.

2011-02-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

"Cinderella walked on broken glass, Belle fell in love with a beast, Jasmine could have had anyone but she chose a poor man, and Ariel, she walked on land.” etc.
So many people dislike fairytales because it makes us believe in love, believe that a prince will save us when smth goes wrong. But I’ve come to realise that in every fairytale-like movie, every girl took a risk. Took a risk for love, took a risk in the name of Love.

What am I to you? A hi-bye friend, just friend, good friend, best friend, classmate, schoolmate, junior, senior, sister? What am I to you? Each time I text you, I always try my best to keep the conversation going, but it seems like you couldn't care less. Then why am I trying so hard just for you? Why am I affected by you when I know I don't mean a single thing to you. I think I really got to set my priorities right this time round. Each time I sad, its not they who I want to turn to but you. But you don't even care, then why am I hoping so much?
Well, hoping too much just brings me down. I guess I'm rather a sensitive person. Whatever man, I tried so hard but.... Right now, everything is going all wrong. Nothing seems to be right. Everything's crumbling down. Fuck man, I don't even know what to do.

Not Alone - Park Jung Min.
[Translations]
That tired expression in your eyes always remain in me
Other than your breathe, I can’t see your image and too can’t make you stay

More exhausted now stop stop stop
Get out of everything step step step
There is no return even though ending it will cause tears

so I can believe I’m not alone
Not alone now, not sad anymore
and I can feel it I’m not alone
Definitely not alone, never be exhausted again

Now again down down down down no! no! no! no!
down down down down no! no! no! no!
Even if more time passes by, I’m not alone
Because of you alone I can believe.

As time passes by, memories of you still remain..
Still living within that traces even if I hate it

Time gradually stop stop stop
Get out again step step step
There is no return even though ending it will cause tears

so I can believe I’m not alone
Not alone now, not sad anymore
and I can feel it I’m not alone
Definitely not alone, never be exhausted again

Now never again down down down down no! no! no! no!
down down down down no! no! no! no!
Even if more time passes by, I’m not alone
Because of you alone I can believe.

Cannot even breathe in this gloomy night
Again I’m not afraid because of you

so I can believe I’m not alone
Not alone now, able to return again
and I can feel it I’m not alone
Definitely not alone, never be exhausted again

Now never again down down down down no! no! no! no!
down down down down no! no! no! no!
Even if everything collapses I’m not alone
Just you alone is enough I’m not alone.
You’re not alone
Credits.

Keep it to myself, the best solution. won't hurt anyone.

411; Life is never fair.

2011-02-22T20:32:00.005+08:00

I wonder why does my life sucks so much. For 16 years, ok not 16 years. Maybe ever since I start knowing how the world works, nothing has been going right for me. Everything just sucked. All I want to do is to be happy but it seems that it's impossible to do so. Everyday I come home, my sister will keep quarreling with me. Is all she does is to quarrel with me? I can't take it. I thought I'm suppose to be happy at home, but truth to be told, I can't be happy at all. I'm already stress enough at school. All the teachers just keep scolding us in class. Hello. My mother don't even scold me as as you do. High expectations on us. I can't do it, how? And now every little thing is just pissing me off. I really want to be happy, I DO. But I can't its so hard to do so... I've gave up on so many things already. I don't think I can fulfill them therefore I just gave it up. I stopped hoping. Hoping just makes me fall even harder. All I do now is fake a smile to tell everybody I'm ok, I'm happy. But inside me, what exactly am I feeling? I don't know also. Fuck my life. Forget it man.

I don't dare to be happy at all cause each time I'm happy, the next moment something will just spoil it all.

410.

2011-02-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

Fake a smile so that the whole world believes that you're happy.

409.

2011-02-16T21:56:00.000+08:00

Hello, I'm stressed out. Bye.

408.

2011-02-14T00:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY. ♥

407; I'm happy to know them.

2011-02-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

406; Isn't it ironic? We ignore those who adore us, adore those who ignore us, love those who hurt us, and hurt those who love us.

2011-02-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

Hello. My title makes so much sense, just because of one person I can just totally shut myself and ignore everybody who truly cared for me when that person didn't even bother about me or have ever placed me in his life. I guess I'm someone who takes things for granted huh? I do really need a tight slap somehow. To wake me up from everything. To tell me that I should doing all these. I should start appreciating everything and not grumble about anything cause I believe that there are others out there who's suffering worser than me right? I always have this mindset but I can never stop telling myself that my life sucks. Then what's the point of me having the mindset. Well, all I can do now is to wait patiently and let nature take its course. I guess, I'm not going to try so hard anymore.

I think I'm going to do braces and forget about DSLR.
I hate my school.
I hate to study.
I am going to USS tomorrow.

Okay goodnight.

405; Because I listen to my heart beat one by one.

2011-02-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

Hello, so its been ages, okay, not ages but pretty long time since I've come to update this space properly. Well, Chinese New Year just passed and I've decided to give up the hope of having a personal DSLR, cause somehow I don't think I can afford/save for it at this rate. A lot of things are affecting me to get one too. I shall wait for it drop from the sky. :D I want to do braces too, but I don't think I can save it so, I'm going to sit here and wait for sponsors to appear. Chinese New Year was not so good and was not so bad. It was pretty neutral I guess. I don't have any feelings this year except for the shopping part. Been skipping school as and when I like it. I have to stop this habit if I want to do well. But I don't want to go to Sec 5 as I'm afraid, but I don't want to do also. I don't know what I want. I keep procrastinating. I don't know why also. I guess I'm not the only who's procrastinating right? Sec 4 life = tests here and then + extra lessons most of the days. I don't like school now, ): everyday same thing. -.- Teacher(s) looking down on our class/picking on us. What they want from us man? Forget about school. Life's pretty neutral too. I've finally decided to let go. After !$#$@#%#%^#@*() years? I have to let go this time. Because of him, my mood gets affected easily and I have no idea why. We shall only be good friends and no more than that. Like how it used to be. I'm sick and tired of this one-sided love thing. I know I can do it. I'm strong and independent :D Well, I don't have anything else to update. I have no life. (: I shall have a habit of updating this space at least once a week. Okay, goodbye. :D

Credits

Before The Dawn - Infinite.
[Translations]
Because I listen to my heart beat one by one
Because I listen to my heart
heart heart to to my heart heart
If I can’t get you no matter how hard I try
You aren’t the one, i feel like a beggar
I-I, can’t let you go like this, its suffocating
And I don’t know what to do
Why Why … Why Why … Why Why …
Before the dawn.. Before the dawn..
My heart isn’t obsessed
Before the dawn.. Before the dawn..
I want to capture you no matter what
Those two lips that whispered love
Those two eyes that close at the right chance
The sides fly to me heart,
I’ll be there by you side (huh)
I became used to only looking at you
Lingering around you, I feel like a beggar
I want to let go of everything now, and thats suffocating
And I don’t know what to do
Why Why … Why Why … Why Why
Before the dawn.. Before the dawn..
My heart isn’t obsessed
Before the dawn.. Before the dawn..
I want to capture you no matter what
Without knowing, I step on your shadow
I’m probably gradually getting crazier
(Because I listen to my heart beat one by one)
To my eyes that sees everything to be dark,
You’re the only one that shines brightly
(Because I listen to my heart heart heart)
Before the dawn (ye ye ye)
Before the dawn (ye ye ye)
I’ll stop you before its too late
Before the dawn (ye ye ye)
Before the dawn (ye ye ye)
I want to have you in the end no matter what
(Before the dawn)
close your eye and close your mind,
your road thats covered with veils
I want to protect you from a future
that seems to be captured in secrets
Because its, you must love me
(Before the dawn)
I’ll hold on tightly so you can’t leave
I’ll grab onto you so I won’t have to cry
No matter how many times you throw me away,
Or how much you prevent it, I’m never going to let you go

Credits.

404.

2011-02-03T11:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year. ♥

403; I really want you to know, I was once there for you all the time.

2011-01-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hello, currently I'm not happy at all. I swear I hate school so much now I don't even have the heart to go to Sec 5 anymore. I really hate what's going on in school. All the teachers are just damn ....... Forget it. Not going to touch on that. Chinese New Year's coming...... I'm not really looking forward to it. I'm just looking forward for $$$$$. I need to start saving money......... I have no mood right now. I think guys can never handle a girl's pms and a week of bleeding. Okay, I'm going to bath and sleep. I hate life now.....

I really hope, you'll notice I'm gone.

402; The tongue has the power of life and death, for those who love it will eat its fruit. - Proverbs 18:21.

2011-01-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

Hello, today I went to church. Even though I don't really know what the pastor was preaching(because its in Chinese), I got affected somehow. I don't know why. He preached something about appreciating on what we have and not see what we don't have. He told us not to care about people's opinion cause it has no value. Only God's opinion has value. Something like that. Then I realized, I should appreciate on how I look instead of complaining about being fat and so forth. But still, I'm determined to lose weight though. Heheh, well. I know that I should not condemn myself or think negatively. I really have no idea what he was talking about. But when he asked people to go the front to pray for them, I stood there. I didn't went up but somewhere inside me, almost broke down. I really don't know. It felt like God was really there for me. I really just feel like breaking down at the point because of the stress in school, the problems at home and even him... I really do, but I held back. I didn't dare to break down. God knew about me not wanting to break down in front of everybody, he helped me ^-^. I love my God a lot. Even though, I'm not a good Christian, I spurt vulgar or bitch now and then, God never gave up on me. Today's trip woke me up a lot. (:
Thank you Daddy God.
Met Karmahn after Church Service at Bedok Interchange. Took the Social Studies textbook from Aiman, thank you. (: went to Bedok Point, ate at Ayam Penyet Ria. Shien came, went to KBOX. Left at 6+pm going to 7pm. Reached home at 8, rested awhile. Ironed the uniform, on the comp. Blogging, tweetering and facebooking. Shall go off now to bath and do my English homework.
personal record; used the computer for 40 minutes only. :O

401; Heartbreaks make us stronger because we learn to pick the pieces up, let go, understand maybe it wasn't meant to be, and move on.

2011-01-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

p/s: I had to use spectacles, so that's a real one and not fake. (:

Hello, TGIF. This week, many things happened. I'm glad for those that have been here for me. My laziness is kicking in. I can't be bothered to do homework anymore. I just gave up already, I don't even know why. probably its because EVERY teachers keep on stressing on how much time we're left till N's and so on. They're expecting ALL of us to get into Sec 5, no I DO NOT WANT to, because I just can't handle the stress and the teachers in the school. Most of them are UNREASONABLE. No kid, they keep on thinking that they're teachers, we, students have to give in to them. BULLSHIT. No such thing, we're ALL HUMANS, we're ALL the SAME. No special treatment. Ain't that what you teachers always say? Everybody is treated fairly, BULLSHIT once again. You teachers don't mean what you say. HAHAHAHAHAH. Sorry, I'm just against schools now. Its not my fault! :D, I guess not all will agree with me, but some do agree. School this week has been pretty alright. 4N3's a very noisy class, I can't concentrate. -_____________- But with all of them, class has been pretty interesting. Goodbye!
going out with Haziqah tomorrow. I want to go rest already. (:

400; The only make-up I need is my smile.

2011-01-19T21:22:00.004+08:00

Hello, have not been updating. It's been 3 weeks in school. ONLY 3 weeks in school, and the teachers keep on stressing about N's. They not tired of saying it, I'm already tired listening to it. I don't dare to go Sec 5. Cause I'm really scared that I'll fail my O's. I don't think I can make it in Sec 5. I really have no confidence in myself. For N's, I don't even think I can do well. ): Forget about studies, life's unfair. I'm only 16, and I'm going through lots of shits. I don't know how to handle all these, all I can do now is to suffer in silence. Well, I can be laughing and smiling in school but deep down, I'm not THAT happy at all. Its a disguise, I suppose? We can't predict what's going to happen in the future, we shall just enjoy life~ ok bye~ I don't know what to blog anymore. Short message ahead~ :D

God, Family; Forever here for me. Forever the best. Forever my life. ♥♥♥♥♥

Beh Jing Yuan, Brigette Kee Ying Xiu, Chelsia Loo Tian Ru, Han Qi Kwang and Teng Kar Mahn; thank you for always being here for me whenever I need you~ ♥

6B'07; I miss you all. I miss the primary school days, it IS the most awesome memories. I miss the laughters and nonsense we had in class. Can we meet up before our major exams soon? ♥

Jaymien Cheong, Ou Wai Jie and Tan Liang Zhong; OI. I miss you all~ When we going to meet and have lunch/dinner again? ♥

SISTAS; When are we going to meet and catch up with each other? I miss you guys a lot. ♥

Chermaine Looi, Kenneth Tan, Wong Jing En; Eh, I miss working together. D: Those working days, quite fun eh! Heheheh~

@beyondwhy's T-List(B2STSG clique); You guys make a difference in my life ♥ I'm very happy to know you all. I miss all of you, let's have an outing soon ok? :D ♥

Amanda Esther Goh, Jessie Lee; The best seniors ever. ♥

Haziqah Sidek, Farah Salleh; Best juniors ever. ♥

399; I'm on a seafood diet. I see food, I eat. (:

2011-01-08T19:59:00.000+08:00

Hello. Been starting each blog post with "hello" and I've no idea why. :| yesterday sucks. Was not in the mood at all yesterday. It was really a fml day. :( I didn't even talk at all I don't really know why. I guess for now, its the worst day ever. Woke up this afternoon feeling a bit better. Then went to Gugu's house. And I felt so much better to be with my family members. I thank God for all my family members. (: Anyways, all I do now is to eat. Everyday eat. When I'm happy, I eat. When I'm sad, I eat. When I'm angry, I eat. When I'm hungry, I eat. Basically whatever I do/feel, I eat. (: I want to go eat buffet. Who's with me? Or Seoul Garden also can! hahahah, ok bye! :D

398; Moving on is simple. It's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

2011-01-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

Hello, TGIF. Been coming straight home after school this whole week. I'm a good girl. Well, joking. The only reason why I come home straight after school cause nobody want to go out with me, #foreveralone. School was pretty boring today. Mr Lo came in for Maths and briefed us on N's. The hopes the teachers pin on us is very high. Just because we're in the first NA maths class doesn't necessarily mean we can have distinctions for N's. As like what I said before, I don't even think I can get into Sec 5. The stress I'm coping at home is more than enough to break me. And now the stress added on by the teachers is enough to kill me already. I don't like the way they keep on emphasizing on N's. I know I'm having my N's this year. I know its in few months time. Yes, I know. Just stop emphasizing on them anymore. The more you emphasize, the more I'll feel pressurized, the more I don't want to study. Fuck my life. I don't like saying that but seriously. I can't handle the stress. At home, /sighs. Everything just is not the way it used to be. I just can't seem to be sincerely happy from the bottom of my heart. I've always told others to think life in a positive point of view, but I'm not doing it myself. What the fuck is wrong with me. I don't think I can be really happy anymore. No matter how hard I tried to be happy, I just can't. Goodbye...

I made an effort to remember your birthday, did you make the same effort?

p/s: taken during Sec 1! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER ♥

397; Memories hold a special place in our heart, it's irreplaceable.

2011-01-06T20:13:00.001+08:00

Hello. Blogging via iPod Touch now. If seems a little bit weird to be blogging via iPod Touch safari. School lessons is boring as per usual but classmates just make it more fun. (: had English Diagnostic Test just now, did it anyhow. Guess I'm going to fail. It was hard too Heheh. I hate how teachers keep on emphasizing on N's and how much time we're left with to N's. The pressure.... Hais. How many times do they have to emphasize it? Very stress. D:
Ok goodbye (:

396; I'll be there for you whenever you need me but will you be there for me when I need someone?

2011-01-05T17:09:00.000+08:00

Hello, I've been playing MBLAQ's Cry for almost the whole day now. When I'm on my way to school, I listened to it throughout the whole journey. When I'm on my home, I listened to it throughout the whole journey too. And when I'm home and using the computer now, I'm listening to it. In my own opinion, I think this song brings out a lot of emotions. Somehow, it affects me one way or another. I think it kinda fits into my situation, :| And its rather addictive. HAHAHAH. School wasn't so bad today. Its just another boring day. My back's aching due to carrying heavy books -_______-, very tired now. School literally drains my energy away. ): Miss Alsagoff gave a talk and it makes me think about my future. I have no idea what I'm going to do after N's. Shall I go to Higher NITEC and work hard then can have a straight admission to Year 2 in Poly or shall I go Sec 5 for O's? I don't think I can make it for Sec 5, even if I do make it to Sec 5, am I able to have good grades for O's and go to Poly? If I don't have the grades, I'll also end up in ITE then I have to work hard x2 to go for Poly right? /sighs. I don't know what to do man. I just think that I won't be able to make it for Sec 5. Do you think I can? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. The title, for you to answer.

Cry - MBLAQ.

[TRANSLATION]

A! Time is too slow for me baby
Listen this girl

(Ah Ah) I’m trying to erase you from the falling tears
(Ah Ah) I can only cleanly leave your side
(Ah Ah) You’re trying to leave too easily
(Ah Ah) Don’t trust women

Frostily chilled voice Your passed look
Oh the lips that dry and frosty
Hey baby say What do I do what do I do
Can you come back to me

U make me cry (You)
The reason I live on
Please don’t leave me
Just tell me why (why)
Oh wipe my tears tell me I’m so crazy (yeah)
Scream out call out (call out) Loudly yell out call out (call out)
This is not the end It hurts so much ah ee yah
Surge call out (call out) Please don’t throw me away baby

Oh baby U make me cry yeah
Oh baby U make me cry yeah
Oh baby just tell me why yeah
Oh baby U make me cry yeah

You are my everything it’s not a different man
I’d rather regret mine Yo my girl
I hurt as each day passes day by day
I can’t hold it in anymore

Oh white before I know it white
Oh I hate the me that was thrown away
Hey baby say I’m black black like this
I’m getting burned all over

U make me cry (you)
U make me cry (You)
The reason I live on
Please don’t leave me
Just tell me why (why)
Oh wipe my tears tell me I’m so crazy (yeah)
Scream out call out (call out) Loudly yell out call out (call out)
This is not the end It hurts so much ah ee yah
Surge call out (call out) Please don’t throw me away baby

I don’t make me cry (Don’t make me cry)
The tears block the front I can’t see
My breath is stuck even though I call your name (Oh)
You don’t seem to be able to hear me anymore
I can’t hold it in I need you in my life
Can you hug me so that these tears will stop

Until you come back
I’m standing here girl there is no day and night
My friends say I’m miserable huh it’s OK cause
Without you I’m my heart that used to beat doo geun doo geun
is now a wrinkled mannequin like a empty peel
Come back love girl I’m so sorry

Ah~ No No No U don’t make me cry (cry)
Now sick of crying and crying I’m fainting
I’m okay (Ah)
You come back to me already you I’m so crazy
Scream out call out (call out) Loudly yell out call out (call out)
This is not the end It hurts so much ah ee yah
Surge call out (call out) Please don’t throw me away baby

Oh baby U make me cry yeah
Oh baby U make me cry yeah
Oh baby just tell me why yeah
Oh baby U make me cry yeah

395; Its the journey, not the destination.

2011-01-04T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hello. Today's the first day of school. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was. My class' very noisy. Well, it has all the noisy people in my class. But I believe this class will also concentrate when we really have to uh? Diyanah's my form teacher, LOL. Somehow, I don't really think I can make it to O's next year. :| I don't have any confidence at all. My studies have been very bad since Sec 2? I don't know, I really have no interest in studying. No matter how many times I've persuaded myself that its good for me, I just can't open up a book and read it cause its very boring. It always makes me want to sleep. I guess studying just makes me feel unsure about my future. No matter how many times I think about my future, it'll be back to square one. I think I can never make it in life, somehow. I just think my life's going to end in 2012. Well, before I was pessimistic about life, I never ever believed in 2012. I guess people change, feelings too. The only things that stays are memories and pictures. I blog with no link. I talk with no link. \m/ bye.

394; If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away my tears.

2011-01-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

Hello. Tomorrow marks the official start of school life. I wonder how am I going to survive in school tomorrow. I've been sleeping and waking up late for the past 2 months. I can't possibly get my body clock back this fast. I doubt I'm able to sleep in 2-3hours time. -.- I don't understand why does lessons resume on the first day of school, they should understand that students need time to adjust that they're back to school after 2 months of holiday. So, I've bought all my school stuffs. Orange bag and orange pencil case. This year's orange and no more cute stuffs~ Hahahahahah. Apparently my phone cover is also orange~ Hmmm, so I'm going to try my best to sleep early for school tomorrow. So I'm going to pack my school stuffs now. Bye! :D

393; I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar.

2011-01-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

~~I'm going to edit this after I bath!~~

p/s: I love my dimples here.

Hello. It's 2nd January 2011. And my body clock ain't back to its original state, and I still haven't buy any school stuffs, fml. I really don't feel like going back to school. Thinking about school just feels so shag. It's going to be start of a Sec 4 life. Have to prepare for N's and then O's if I ever make it, but I doubt I will ;_____; My results are so lousy, how the hell will I make for O's man. Cause life is shitty, everything is shitty. Gosh, I hate life as it is now. It just sucks to be penniless. Everything's crumbling down, I can keep going on how my life sucks but I won't cause I know there's others out there who's suffering way worst than I do. So as what I told Liangzhong, I'm going to be optimistic in life. And I'm going to do so. Well, I'm trying my best to be optimistic in everything I do. And I do am happy that there's friends that's willing to listen and be there for me whenever I need someone to talk to. ♥ Thank you all so much! I've noticed that I've been thanking friends these days. I just feel so grateful knowing everybody that enter my life and bothers to stay in it. Teehee, thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you. ♥
Enough of that. Shall talk about today's outing. Woke up at 1pm plus due to my head knocking on the wall when I'm trying to cover my ears with the pillows. -.- Stupid drillings out my house. They really ought to stop cause its super irritating. Then bath and waited for Karmahn to come over, when she reached CCK, I changed and waited for her. Brought her up and then straighten my fringe in a rush(that's why my fringe look so ugly today! OMG), left the house off to Jurong East to meet Liangzhong, Jaymien and Waijie. Sorry we're late!!!!!!! Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry! Heheh, but waiting for girls is very gentlemanly, so you should be happy! :D Went to Bugis to have steamboat. It was my first meal of the day, but I didn't eat much. Talking about steamboat, somebody owes me steamboat. But he will never come my blog -.- Thank you Liangzhong and Karmahn for peeling prawns again for me today! ♥ I feel so bless to have people dirtying their hands and nails just to peel prawns for me! Thank you! Gombawa! Arigato! Xiexie! Terima Kasih! (: There's this part where this yellow Lamborghini keep going back and forth, the car damn pretty! Then Liangzhong saw the driver was malay, and then Waijie say "must be rented" we all just can't stop laughing. HAHAHAHAH. After steamboat, we walked to esplanade. But on the way there, Jaymien VERYVERYVERY stress cause he have to go to a funeral! HAHAHAH, it was damn epic. We couldn't stop laughing. So everybody decided to go home. On the train back home, Liangzhong, Jaymien, Waijie and I were tweeting to each other instead of talking. Wonders of technology~ Thanks to the somebody who created twitter, it makes life so much easier, heheh. I can't stop laughing when I saw how Waijie spell "songka" on twitter. He spelled it as "songkak". Liangzhong and I literally laughed. HAHAHAHAHAH. Okay, I guess I'm done blogging! Check facebook for the pictures! Good bye (:

392.

2011-01-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR. ITS 2011. LET BYGONES BE BYGONES. MAY EVERYONE HAVE A BLESS NEW YEAR. BE HAPPY. (:

391; Happy New Year Eve.

2010-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hello. Today's the last day of 2010. Well, I guess its time to summaries the whole year.
2010 is the year that I think sucks to me the most. Everything this year just seems to be crumbling down. But I'm glad I have friends with me. Let's just say, my life is almost the same like those in Death Girl. I need to be able to cross over the Naihe Bridge to survive. Thanks to all my friends, I'm able to do so. This year, I've met friends that stays with me till the end. I've met awesome people to spazz about. At least I know I'm never too old/young to do something right? Knowing @B2STSG clique makes my life so much fun. I've said what I wanted to say in this post. Thank you so much for this year! I hope we will never ever ever drift and continue to have fun and spazz even though I'm not really into kpop le ok? :D Well, I've got amazing friends too! here,here,here if these amazing friends have not read the post! Well, I hope 2011's going to be an awesome year. I hope everybody will be happy. I love you guys, bye.

390.

2010-12-30T00:11:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TAN LIANG ZHONG! ☺

389; Because I Believe.

2010-12-29T23:03:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I just lose control of my emotions and break down.
Hello. I guess this holiday has been pretty fun. I had fun rotting at home, fun working for a week, fun meeting out friends I'd never thought I'd meet again, fun laughing, fun being crazy, to sum it all I had fun this holiday. (: rotted at home today. AGAIN. Brought my siblings down to the pool. I was sitting at on side and busy texting. Hahah, the last 10 minutes they were swimming, I actually stoned. Oh, how I miss those times. (: BAHAHAHAHAHAH. Something I'd like to share because I love it. (:

I am Aaron Yan.
Today I'm going to introduce one of my good friends, which is Gui Gui Wu Ying Jie.
Well, about how I met her...
As most of you know, I spend a good time with Gui Gui during MIT filming
She is the female lead and I am the male lead in this drama
I felt that we have gone through a lot...
In MIT, it's about challenging some hurdles (means plot of the drama)...
And the same time, the feeling about each other (007&Tian;Mo Xing) is also gradually build.
For me, she is a very lovely girl and sometimes unpredictable
You can see it if you look at her outfit
She loves colorful clothing and very bright color shoes.
She dolled herself up all the times
I am quite admire her because of her braveness
And she is easily...
I mean she is sensitive about her reputation, but at the same time she is kinda desperate to mingle with other people
She needs people attention. If somebody did not pay attention on her, she will start wondering if she is being ignored or pushed aside.
But this is not true
In short, she is a girl that very in need of care
Although sometimes she is unreasonable, she actually do concern about friends around her
She is tender in some way
So, I hope that we have the opportunity to work together in the future
Since her age is similar with me, so I guess she is the one in the million (among all female artist of cooperation) which looks more appropriate with me.
Therefore, if we (GuiLun) could work together again, I would like to see you guys supporting us!

我是炎亞綸.
接下來要跟大家介紹的是鬼鬼吳映潔這位好朋友
怎麼說呢...我是怎麼認識這位朋友
其實是大家都知道在拍霹靂mit的時候其實跟鬼鬼相處地蠻開心
因為她是女主角我是男主角
那我覺得兩個人經歷了...
其實在mit裡面有像闖關那種感覺就是一集一集會有不同的關卡等著我們去解決
所以感情也可以在裡面慢慢的培養
那我覺得她是非常的活潑可愛的女生然後加上有點無理頭
因為我覺得...就她平常穿著就可以看得出來她是怎麼穿衣服
她就會穿得上半身花花綠綠再配上花花綠綠的褲子再配一個非常鮮豔的鞋子
整個就是花枝招展
那我覺得敢這樣穿的人沒幾個我覺得很佩服她就是了
而且她很容易...
其實她是一個蠻愛面子但卻很想跟別人打成一片的女生
她很需要別人的眼光然後平常相處的時候只要人家稍微不把眼光放在她身上她就開始感到被排擠跟冷落
但其實人家都沒有這樣的意思
她就是一個非常需要關懷跟關愛的一個女生
那我覺得她私底下的個性無理頭之外她也是一個蠻會關心周遭朋友的人
就是一個蠻細心的女生
那我希望將來還有很多就是可以一起拍戲的緣分
因為我畢竟在這眾多女主角之間
她算是年紀跟我比較能夠搭得上的人
那我覺得如果鬼綸能夠再合體的話希望大家可以多多支持

1)2010 is almost over, confess something you've always wanted to tell me or want me to know but never got the chance to or ask me anything.
2) Do you guys regret knowing me?
Formspring me! (:

388.

2010-12-28T03:35:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY DOROTHY TAN MEI JUAN ♥

387; Quality of Friends has priority over the Quantity of Friends.

2010-12-27T23:40:00.011+08:00

Hello. I rotted at home the whole. And I really don't know what to do now! Maybe I should do some dedication thing. I'm just this bored! I was watching KO 3anguo. But stopped, cause I'm too lazy to continue watching ;_______; Shall continue after blogging and after I bath. Or I should sleep early. School's reopening I need to adjust my body clock! D: Shall I do the dedication thing tonight. If its not now, I don't know when I should do so. I'll be busy on the 30th. :) Heading off to Laikei's house for my Harry Potter marathon and some Daejun Gayo thingy~ then staying overnight at her house. :D heheh~ Shall use her camera to spam pictures of me! Awesome not~ :D okays, shall I do the dedication now? As in this post? But I'm so lazy to do so. Hahahah! I scared I do for some, some I never do, they not happy don't friend me. HOW? D: Okays, I shall do for the awesome people first! For the others, I shall do so some other day. I am sad now, I can't find a picture I used to have anymore D: Okays, time for the dedication thing? Shall do 6 first. (:

Hello Tan Liang Zhong! Hahah, this picture very nice and you like it right? Yeah I know! Cause I do like it too! HAHAHAHAH. Well, thank you for everything ^-^ It was really nice meeting you. Although we didn't talk to each other for a period of time before, in the end we still talked and eventually meet up after 1 year + hahah! It's fun yesterday. Thank you for being there when I needed someone to talk to, thank you for the advises too. So after so long, I've finally learned to let go and also be happy for myself. HAHAHAHAH. You too. Good luck for your O's next year and also good luck with Girl A. Wait, is it still Girl A? Hahahah! Hope you like the christmas card although its plain and ugly, but still YOU GOT TO LOVE IT OK. Hahah~ :D Your birthday in another 3 days huh! Hahahah. You're going to be 16, like FINALLY. Hahah! Bye!

Hello Chelsia Loo Tian Ru! Thanks babe, for always been here for me. No matter what happens, you're here for me. No matter how many times we quarreled, we'll get back together again. And I'm really glad to have you as my friend. At least I know when I'm really down and has no one to turn to, I can turn to you and you'll try your best to help. Thank you so much! Please do not be so paranoid ok! (: And you have to stop being so crazy about Sun! HAHAHAH.

Hello Han Qi Kwang! Retard! Thanks for always being here for me! We're not really close in Sec 1 and then in Sec 2, I do not know how we become so close and Sec 3 even closer! Hah, but I don't care. I can always talk to you about everything also. I'm glad to know you and become close friends with you! Good luck with her! (:

Hello Teng Kar Mahn! You uh! Have to stop fangirling le uh! As in not stop, but lessen the fangirling or not you're going to suffer next year! Hahahah! Thank you so much for peeling the prawn for me! (I think I have to keep repeating this to feel super blessed.) Hahah! Thanks for always being there for me! And when I needed somebody's company, you'll try your best to be here for me. You have to start replying's people sms asap ok! Especially MINE. Although, its bbm not sms. You still have to reply asap ok! p/s: I think I look uber chio in the picture! HAHAHAH. :x, try your best to forget him ok? I've done my best. You got to do so ok!

Hello Brigette Kee Ying Xiu! Thank you for always been here for me with your retarded actions to make me smile. Each time I feel sad in school, you'll always try your best to make me laugh with your naive and retarded actions. Hahah! Thank you so much yeah babe! Last long with Ryan! (:

Hello Beh Jing Yuan! Remember in primary school, we're not very close? It's after we leave the school then we start to being very close? heheh, but nevertheless I miss primary school D: Anyways, thank you for always being here for me! It's the best thing ever! Usually, after leaving primary school, we'll all drift but we got closer! Heheh! Good luck for your O's next year and be happy everyday!

Okays, I'm done! Shall do the rest tomorrow! Goodbye~ :D

386; In my opinion, no matter how many friends you really have out there, not all will dirty their hands to peel prawns for you! (:

2010-12-26T23:59:00.010+08:00

Hello! Today is an awesome day. Went to meet Liangzhong, Waijie and Jaymien first at Lot 1 before heading down to Simpang for my prata. When I reached they were drinking bubble tea, hahahah! Then we headed off to the smoking area cause they wanted to smoke, but I sat at one corner cause I don't like the smell. :x It's so ironic, I grew up in a house with smokers, I hang out with smokers but I can never get use to the smell. Anyways, it was a little awkward at the beginning. At least to me it is. I don't know why, maybe its because we didn't meet for quite a period of time. The train ride to Tanah Merah was quiet. Nobody talked, everybody was listening to songs! LOL. Then we reached, so we walked all the way there. ANDDDDDDDDDD I FINALLY had my prata and Karmahn came! Miss her so much!!! Thanks Liangzhong for the treat! After that, idk where we went then after awhile we went to Udders and I had my ice cream and took pictures with them ^^. I think the picture with Liangzhong looks the best, idkw~ Then we went to Layting's church~ It was er, .... Neverminds, not going to blog about anything. So halfway throughout, we went off. Because of some reasons and then went to 85 market for my stingray and prawns! It was an awesome dinner! Thanks Karmahn, Liangzhong and Waijie for helping me to peel prawns! I swear I feel super blessed to have them peeling prawns for me, hahah! And let me fulfill my cravings within a day! From prata to stingray to prawns! THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH! hahahah! After dinner we headed off to 116 cause they saw a basketball court but we ended up at the playground! It was epic and fun! Went off around 9.30. And then I'm home! Ta-da~
Today has been an awesome and wonderful day! Thank you guys for making today fun. ♥

I look so round in the picture with Jaymien D:

p/s: I think I left out a lot of details here, but I don't care much already! The other pictures is with Karmahn!

AND HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE MY CARD! :D

385.

2010-12-25T01:11:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS. ♥

834; Because I'm thankful for them.

2010-12-23T23:59:00.013+08:00

Hello, T-List. ♥ Look at how time past, its been 8 months we meet. I remember meeting the first half of the t-list via Callista Ohmonnim for the very first B2STSG don't know what gathering. Hahah, and then I talked non-stop to break the ice. Quarreled with X. because she's being way overboard, then when she left everybody talked non-stop about her even when we were at home on msn/twitter. Those times are so precious eh. Then when everybody knows B2ST is coming, there's more gathering and I tagged along and then we spend most of our time together~ During June holidays where we meet up almost everyday to do stuffs like, fanboards, B2STSG tshirt, payment and etc. Then we get to know everyone who's on T-List now thanks to the boys and the events itself. How cool is the world huh. Idk how we start with the 44c Partner with only me and Chermaine and the Ahjumma's club. Then slowly it becomes 44c club because there were more people and now its a 58c Club huh. Memories, how precious are they.... During June we meet almost everyday, then when school reopens we hardly meet, but we still meet and use every chance we have to catch up and stuffs. But most of the times were on twitter though. (:
♥ 58c Club; Hey. I guess we're going to be mad busy next year thanks to our studies. You guys have to prepare for your O's, and Amalina and I for our N's. But before that, can we meet up once and have a 58c Club "small kid"(like how the ahjummas call us) party? Let's go have fun on our own! Play and stuffs, but a budget trip! Maybe Jurong East Swimming Complex for some water fun before school reopen? :D Heheh, good luck for your O/N's next year!
Lots of ♡s, Robiaatul
♥ Ahjumma Club + Callista Ohmonnim; Hey, thanks for all the advices when I really needed one. I guess meeting you all opened up my mindset. Everytime we go out, I just feel very happy. I don't whether its me only or what, but I really do feel happy we go out cause I can get my mind off the things I don't want to think about. Thank you all so much! Good luck in life!
Lots of ♡s, Robiaatul

From ME to YOU;

May this ship sail on the sea forever and ever without sinking, cause I can't afford for it to sink.

383; Let go, leave it all behind.

2010-12-22T23:01:00.004+08:00

Because.....
Hello. Rotted at home the whole day. Megaupload won't work with me in the afternoon and it was pissing me off. Thank goodness it worked and I can download my Death Girl. I need to watch finish the show. And I've got lots of shows to download! I need to redownload Pi Li MIT. But before that I'm going to download Autumn's Concerto. Er, I don't know. I just need to catch up on Autumn's Concerto and Death Girl. So I just hope Megaupload and my internet won't bitch on me. Please work together ok? Downloading the last episode of Death Girl and then I can start downloading Autumn's Concerto. Then I can watch. (: I think I'm the only one who's lagging behind for Death Girl huh. Can't help it, I hate the lead actress and the story plot is just too boring even though it's kinda related to reality. I just don't like it. Hmmmm, waiting for it to finish downloading now, to watch. /crossfingers I just hope nothing cocks up huh. Left one episode to download only!!!!!!! D: Don't bitch on me please!!!!!

I'm cutting down on my "la, leh, lor, hor, wor, sia". I think its time to improve my english. Hahah, good luck to me. :D Goodbye!

382; Because, all I ask for is happiness.

2010-12-21T23:27:00.005+08:00

Cause, you're my everything.
Hello. I know I'm stupid to put my love on an idol. But have anyone thought that, loving an idol is so much easier than loving someone who will reject/hurt/make use of your feeling? At least when you love someone who doesn't know you exist, there's no chance he can hurt you like how some jerks does. At least he won't play with your feelings and he can make you happy without knowing that you're happy because of him. Its because he doesn't know you exist. Doesn't know you love him wholeheartedly. Its a very good way to escape from hurt and love this way, isn't it? Well, I think it is. Maybe some people don't agree with me, because they might find it stupid. But, I think this way, is the best way to escape from reality. I'd rather stay in a world that doesn't exist than facing reality that sucks so much. It hurts a lot. Why suffer when you can choose to at least escape from reality.
Haha. I don't know what came into me to type all that. I'm just, er, I don't know. Emotional? HAHAHAH. Okays, enough of ranting so much. Oh, I deleted my previous post. Its so....... lollol. I just need to find ways to open myself up, as in not cutting my body apart or whatsoever. I need to stop bottling up all my feelings. I need to be happy! :D Okay thens, I'm off to watch The X Family again. Hahahah. Happy birthday mummy and yiyi. ♥

381; It's impossible to find someone who won’t hurt you, so go for the person worth the pain.

2010-12-18T01:07:00.003+08:00

Cause sometimes, I don't know what I'm doing at all.
Hello~ there's no sale today also. And I lost my wallet, with my IC, ATM card, house key and $6.40 in it. fml, my fucking brain just jammed. Twice already. I guess I need a real good sleep. D: I really am so tired. I have to go report police somemore. Omg. I think I should go brush my teeth then sleep soon. Like straight away. But I am really very hungry. Omg. idk what to do le~ kk, goodnights. D:

[Edit @ 4:53PM]

So I went to report the police and reported for my lost wallet. Well, it was my first time to the police station and it was kinda scary. Hahah, whatever. Well~ time to rot for the whole day now. So boring sia. :| idk what to do tomorrow also. Haiz, k I've got nothing else to blog. Bye.

[/Edit]

380; Because when I need you, you won't there.

2010-12-17T01:24:00.012+08:00

Cause I bring no wonder.

Hey. I've been craving for stingray since idk when D: when will I be able to eat it? Wah, I'm very tired now. Everyday also very tired, I want to die already, worst still there's no sale today. Sad life uh, :( I don't have anything to blog about? LOL. Oh, I really don't know what to do anymore. It's very torturing to see someone you love sad and then, you'll get affected too. I don't like to see my friends sad, so can everybody be happy? (:

Amanda uh~ be strong and happy ok? Its no worth to cry over a jerk anymore. Even if you don't have him anymore, you still have me, Jingen and many more who are willing to be there for you everyday ok? Just give me a call/text I'll promise to be there for you! ♥ Don't forget God loves you too! ♥ I love youuuuu~ :D

Qunsheng uh~~~~ Hahahah~ Don't be so moody already ok? (: Its not good to be moody cause being moody is equivalent to losing 60 seconds of your happiness. Why waste being happy to be sad? (: might as well be happy right? Smile more! Don't think so much!

379; If the heart is the strongest muscle, then why does it break so easily?

2010-12-16T02:28:00.007+08:00

Hi. Work has been pretty fun for these days, got 2 sales again. :) God works wonder, the wonders he work cannot be explained, I love him so much! ♥ I really got to thank God for all the wonders he made and all the things he have done to me. I can't explain how much I love him! :D Well, I thank him for my family, friends and me knowing him. Anyways, yeah! I got my polaroid already! Thank you gugu for the polaroid! ♥ I'm so happyyyyyyyy~ hehehs! All I want now is DSLR. :| heheh, I'm feeling so tired now, omgggggggggggggggggg. Why am I such a pig. /smacks

Goodbye cause I don't really know what I should blog now, my brain died again! HAHAH. Goodnights, ♥

CHECK THIS OUT. THEY'RE SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. AND ITS ON REPLAY MODE NOW. HAHAHAH

378; One minute you're nice but the next day, it's like I don't even exist anymore.

2010-12-14T01:32:00.004+08:00

Hey, started work today(technically, yesterday). No choice but to blog now, reached home at 12 also ma~ Hahah. It was quite fun with Chermaine, Jingen and Kenneth. Was late and our leader didn't scold us. My brain was jam, and my mouth too. I have to start using my brain and mouth more. Cause I need them more next year. I think as time pass, I'll do well. :D my back's aching so badly now. I should really use a sleep right now~ HAHAHAHAH. Okays, I am bored, sleepy, tired and HUNGRY. Didn't have anything for the whole day except for Mac lor. l o l.

Dear You,

Well, I really think I couldn't get over you or maybe it's just me that needs to slowly let go. I think I'm just holding on when I really don't see a point to hold on at all. I just find it very torturing to let go. But by holding on, I end up nowhere too. I need to wake up a.s.a.p. I think I am going crazy thinking about all of this. :| idkw do I keep thinking of you all the time. I need to get you out of my mind a.s.a.p. I am very tired already, idk what else I can do anymore :( gosh, all I can do now, is let nature take its course. Can't do much also, I just can hope. :| well, I think I should stop ranting about you anymore. :|

Love,
Me.

Sorry about that, I just need to rant. r o f l. Blogging feels so great again, heheheheh~ such a long post, I suppose? But I like it this way than my old way of blogging. Its so short, then what's the point of blogging right? Heheh, okays. Bye. Goodnights, ♥

377; In three words, I could sum up everything I learned about about life. “It goes on.”

2010-12-12T02:38:00.006+08:00

Credits: Tumblr.

Hi. Hah, I just finished editing this blog. Its been almost 4 months and 11 days since I've blogged. I missed the feeling. Most of the times, I'll be on tumblr rotting and reblogging away~ and now its been like, 2 weeks away from tumblr and idekw. No more feel and lazy perharps? These few months have lots of up and downs. And I guess November was the month that I feel very very very down. I can only remember all these up to this point. I've very poor memory. Omg. I can just bang wall. /bangs But I'm very active on twitter. I've no idea why. It became a habit to tweet everyday, without tweeting it just feels weird. :/ Hah, I've no idea what I'm blogging now. I just feel like coming back here to blog. HA HA HA. Maybe, I'll do a proper update soon? Idk. Hah, and boo-yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Zac Efron, Kim Jae Jong, Kim Jong Hyun and Shin Dong Ho are my eye candy now~ HEHEHEH. Arron Wu is my husband. Hahah, /getsbrick. LOL. I've stopped the kpop fandom in me. And I'm just focusing on the 3 kpop guys and my baby, Arron now. :) I've guess I've done it. But sometimes, I do spazz on them. Especially Big Bang. Oh wait. More on G-Dragon's. :B hahah. Anyways. I'm talking to him again. I guess I couldn't really forget him. I'll just let nature take its course then. Hahahah~ Anyways, Fahrenheit came. And I went! And I swear, I wasn't excited or what till I see Arron. Er, for more info: click here. Bye for now. Blog some other day! Anyways, check these 2 mvs out.

This song is superbbbbbbbb~ It's my blog song now. Hahah. I think you'll want to press the video. The music on my blog won't stop :x Hahahah~ And it kinda fits my situation. Hahaha. DBSK is awesome ok, they're a legend. Nobody can beat them. :D

Aoquan's just so fucking cute here. Can't wait to see Lollipop F in Singapore if they were to ever come :D. Hahahah!

376; Roller Coaster Ride.

2010-07-30T10:04:00.003+08:00

Hey, I think its time for an update? Hahahah, I'm always contemplating whether I should update at blogger. I'm always contemplating, and I've no idea why at all. HAHAH. Since its erm 30th July, I shall post uh. Hahahah. I feel like closing down my blog for certain reasons, shall I? LOL.
This blog contains too many memories, both good at bad. Sometimes, I wish all that could be deleted in my mind just like how I can delete the archives here. Everything about me, reminds me of you. Sometimes, I just don't know what I'm thinking. I suck. Oh so much. Love, brings me down. And will never bring me up. Why do people say life is just like a roller coaster ride? They're lying. When roller coaster goes down the railway, there's this "thrill" in it. Life doesn't. Another thing is fandom, I have to stop this fandom thing. Its like, too much already. Now Singapore loves bringing in them. Great or what. -.-. I've stopped fandom, but couldn't control, I need to start fandom again, and when I start, all the kidols comes. What the fuck. After the news, I've decided to stop all fandom except Big Bang, good luck to me. LOL. KK, I closing this blog le. Will open this blog asap :D.

375; A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the fake smile.

2010-07-22T21:35:00.004+08:00

(Credits: Tumblr.)
Hey. Finally an update eh. Can't let this blog die man.
Plus, today its an important date, all the more I should I blog.
Well, life was just as per usual. But this time round, when something pulls me down, it pulls me down all the way. It will not stop halfway. I hate this feeling. At least when I'm happy nothing brings me down easily. Alrights, enough of my life. Here to dedicate something ^^.

(Sorry for the lousy editing >:)
Happy 15th Birthday, my dear crazy friend, Chelsia Loo Tian Ru.
Hope you like my birthday present yeah. Its the SUN! And the post card too! :D
Thanks for being there, no matter what yeah. I will always be here for you too yeah. Remember that by heart!!!
Hearts, Robiaatul.

374; Nothing on you.

2010-06-30T18:40:00.003+08:00

I'm here to post 5 poems that I made from Big Bang members' solo song to a poem.
Here it goes :) Eldest to youngest.

To T.O.P/Choi Seung Hyun: I noticed that you grew into a Big Boy when you sang “Turn It Up” and killing all the fangirls on Earth, but yet you Pretended That Nothing Happened.

To Tae Yang/Dong Young Bae: Baby I’m Sorry, you’re so Hot that I felt like a Sinner while wearing that Wedding Dress which reminds you that I’m no longer yours. But I believe in my Prayer, that you’ll Only Look At Me.

To: G-Dragon/Kwon Ji Yong: You’re just A Boy that makes me hard to Breathe. You’re just like a Butterfly, charming in its own way. Sometimes I don’t understand why antis call you Gossip Man, when you’re one of The most awesome Leaders in KPOP world. But at times, you’re my Heartbreaker. Cause in my Korean Dream, you didn’t say Hello to me when I greeted you. But I still Love you. Although, She’s Gone, This Love from me to you will never cease.

To Kang Dae Sung: I’m Trying To Smile while eating a Cotton Candy when you sang “Look At Me, Gwisoon” to someone else instead of me.

To Seungri/Lee Seung Hyun: I believe that The Next Day, you’ll be a Strong Baby.

(c)Robiaatul.
I'm sorry if some of them are crappy. I tried my best TT.TT.

Anyways, I'm going on hiatus. I have no mood anymore. I'm just plain tired. Bye. Do tag/talk to me on msn if you need to find me. :)

373; I'm fifteen, you're sixteen.

2010-06-29T20:53:00.004+08:00

(Credits: Anyone who take the pictures. And me, for editing)
Click to enlarge :D

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY SHIN DONG HO OPPA!!!!!
생일 16 번째 생일 신동호 오빠!!!!!
JUST BE WHO YOU ARE FOREVER OK?
CAUSE I LOVE YOU THAT WAYYYYYY!!!! AND DO TWEET MOREEEEEEEEEE!

372; Summary.

2010-06-26T17:04:00.007+08:00

Let's summarize this whole post with a sentence.
Hah, just joking. I'll summarize it from 19th June <:
19th June.
Surprise party. Thanks mum.
20th June.
U-Kiss fansign!
Its awesome, their fanservice = daebak. You'll never believe it.
Too good to be true, seriously man. Super good! I thought I was dreaming.
Hahahah.
21sth June.
Happy 15th Birthday to me.
I get to celebrate it with U-Kiss ♥.
Their showcase, one word "DAEBAK."
HEHEH. SUPER NICE LAAAAAA.
And fuck those lucky bitches on stage. They get to hug them.
22nd June.
-I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HAPPENED. HAHAH-
23rd June.
Hi-5 Session with Beast.
Their hand, soft <: Yooseob was super cute. I love DongWoon's eye and smile. <: HEHEH.
24th June.
Beast Showcase and recording for EON5.
Awesome, they sang quite number of songs.
The "mc" is sexist :D
25th June.
Happy 17th Birthday Ahsiao, Callista.
One word, disappointment.

To summarize the last 3 days(23rd-25th June);

FUCK YOU UMS. (Y)

BEAST SAT BUS TO MALAYSIA. POOR BOYS.

To Beast: Truthfully, to me Beast Is not The Best cause I love Big Bang. Just Before Shock, I became a Bad Girl and I got Shocked and it was hard to Say No to the Special boy band that just capture my heart. Yet, the suspense now is still in Mystery cause it wasn’t Easy for me to like Beast. But after this, you’re my Oasis after Big Bang

To U-Kiss: Am I that easy for you? Yes, you make my head binguel binguel now when I think of you. Without you, mworango? Cause I’ll not be young anymore. So talk to me and make my heart go Bang Bang Bang and I’ll be out on the dancing floor dancing with you.

(c)Robiaatul

371; MIA till 26 June. <:

2010-06-05T23:10:00.003+08:00

(Credits: No idea, credits to anybody out there.)

I'M A MOTHER FUCKING HAPPY BITCH RIGHT NOW. BYE BYE. I SHALL NOT BLOG TILL 26 JUNE. KK. BYE BYE :D

370; It's hard to fall in love again when you’re still attached to your past. Learn, to let go.

2010-06-03T22:27:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Tumblr.)

I AM A HAPPY GIRL TODAY. BYE BYE.

369; Just because I'm a strong person, doesn't mean I don't break down when you walk away.

2010-06-02T23:45:00.001+08:00

(Credits: Credits it to anyone.)
I'll pretend that I see nothing, just to trust you again.
HEYHEY.
Got nothing to update.
I want to eat tidbit now >:
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I >: now.

368; Love is easy to say. But actions speak louder than words.

2010-06-01T19:37:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Tumblr.)
OMG. BABY. I DIDN'T KNOW YOU COULD BE THIS PRETTY! ♥
OMGOMGOMG. WO HAO AI NI WOR~
Okays, holiday is boring :O
HOLIDAY NO MONEY = NO TALK ONE SIA.
WALAO T.T
HEHEHEH. I GOT NO LIFE.
WAKE UP > ON COMP > EAT > COMP > EAT > COMP > SLEEP > WAKE UP.
Same routine everyday xD
On comp do what?
iTunes, Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook.
LOL. BYEBYE :D

I ♥ KWON JI YONG!

367; Sales.

2010-05-31T16:26:00.004+08:00

F.T Island Nametag.
Bought at: $4.90.
Selling at:$3.50
Condition: 7/10. (The needle at the back is rusty, as seen in the picture.)

9 SS501's Kim Hyun Joong 3R Photos.
Bought at: Present.
Selling at: $5 (Price negotiable.)
Condition: 10/10.
4 Wallet Size SS501's Kim Hyun Joong Photo Card, 2 Wallet Size Kim Bum Photo card and 1 Kim Bum Ezlink Card Sticker.
Bought at: $1 each.
Selling at: $5 for all.
Condition: 10/10.
Boys Over Flowers Soundtrack 1 & 2. There's photocards inside.
Bought at: Approximately $25 each, I think.
Selling at: $40 for both.
Condition: 10/10.
I don't know what to title this. LOL. But its paper inside, I think.
Bought at: $3.90 each.
Selling at: $7.50 for both.
Condition: 10/10, never open before.
Fahrenheit's Singapore Edition Xiang Ru Fei Fei. (Comes with a small folder?)
Bought at: Approximately at $25, I think.
Selling at: $18.
Condition: 8/10.

First customer to buy from me get these 2 ezlink card sticker free :)

SEND ME AN EMAIL @ robithegreat@hotmail.com IF INTERESTED. And yeah. You can ask me on formspring.
http://www.formspring.me/Robiaatul

366; Hopes.

2010-05-30T22:44:00.004+08:00

(Credits: Tumblr.)

TODAY, I FOUND OUT, I STILL MISS YOU BADLY T.T

Hey.
Today is not an awesome day.
G-Dragon updated his me2day when I'm out..
It was horrible T.T
K, bye.

ANYONE CAN TEACH ME MATHS FOR FREE? TEXT ME OR PM ME ON MSN! :D

365; Doubts.

2010-05-29T19:34:00.002+08:00

(Credits: Forgotten, credits to whoever owns this.)
Hey.
I want to migrate either to Japan or Korea.
Singapore is Boring.
The things here cause bombs.
Argh.
Bye.

CONGRATULATIONS TO BABY AND OPPAS FOR WINNING 3 AWARDS IN VMAJ! :D 2 AWARDS FOR BIG BANG (GARA GARA GO AND LET ME HEAR YOUR VOICE) AND 1 AWARD FOR BEST COLLABRATION (G-DRAGON AND W-INDS)! (L)

364; We live like a weed that perseveres through everything rather than like a flower that withers away quickly.

2010-05-28T22:45:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Tumblr.)
GDYB anyone?
Oh, boring day today.
FUCK GOD DAMN IT. THE CONVERTER KEEPS ON HANGING.
FUCK GOD DAMN IT LA.
ITS ONLY 0.85% for like I think 13 videos. AND NOT MOVING AT ALL.
I STILL GOT LOTS MORE TO DOWNLOAD.
ARGH. FUCK IT.
GOING TO DO SLOWLY. T.T
GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD>
BYE.

363; Love is blind which is why people always trip over when in love.

2010-05-27T18:48:00.005+08:00

Dong Young Bae, Kwon Ji Yong, Kang Dae Sung, Choi Seung Hyun and Lee Seung Hyun.
(Credits:Tumblr.)
HEY! So cute right!
Its Big Bang.
Yeah, last day of school today.
Bye.

I love Meiji Chocolate Milk ^v^

CLICK HERE PLEASE! :D
You'll find lots of interesting stuff ^^ HEHEH.

362; People whom you trust all along, will shatter you. No matter how close you are with them.

2010-05-26T19:51:00.005+08:00

(Credits: Tumblr.)
HEYYYYYYYYYYY. YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
After school RUSHED home.
Yes, 1 hour plus of rushing home.
I've been camping at tumblr more now. I've totally ignored twitter. (Not totally though, like hardly use twitter while tumblr-ing.)
Alrights, 1 more days to "Holiday."
So going to enjoy it, (minus the days needed to go to school.)
Come to think of it, only 5 days! YEAH.
SO YEAH. BYE BYE :)
HAHAHAHAHAAH.

361; On my knees, begging you not to leave.

2010-05-25T21:09:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Google.)
Hey.
I'm so into G-Dragon now. Hehes.
I know I'm slow to say this but I love his Heartbreaker concept. Its so cooooooool.
And I will continue loving him xD! MUAHAHAHAH!
HEHEH. Okays. Bye.

360; We’re not perfect. Any of us. We make mistakes, we screw up but then we forgive and move forward.

2010-05-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Haven.)
Hey. Went out with Cassandra Chew, Callista and Vivien to Suntec for lunch.
I'm off to listen to G-Dragon's Heartbreaker album now.
Then bath, then off to sleep. Goodnights!
My hubby so cute ^v^. Watched BB/2NE1/GD tv just now. Its so awesome. Kays, goodnight! :)

359; If equal existed, empty wouldn’t exist. If forever existed, ending wouldn’t exist. You’ve to work to gain.

2010-05-23T23:31:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Updates.)
HEYHEYHEY! LOOK HOW CUTE MY BABY IS!!!! :D
TODAY WAS AWESOME.
I SAW SHOW LUO.
AND SHOOK HAND WITH HIM.
YEAH.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

358; Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

2010-05-22T20:45:00.007+08:00

Hey, I love these pictures even though they're candid. It looks awesome.
After the editing even more wow! HAHAH.
Woke up early today for brother's fun fair.
After that, rotted at home whole day.
Okays! Bye :)
Oh, I changed my skin. Hope its awesome :)

Uploading the pictures on ~~youtube~~facebook, will update you all soon whether I can upload or not :) (I can't upload)

357; People who laugh a lot are much healthier than those who don't.

2010-05-21T19:51:00.006+08:00

Act cute photo huh? Whatever.
Alrights, today is the last day for the module.
I have no mood now. Here's some of my favourite pictures taken for today and yesterday.
Click to enlarge*
Yesterday; Pictures taken with Mrs Yap. (All)

Some pictures;

Today's;

356; Can you pretend airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now.

2010-05-20T21:06:00.003+08:00

(Credits: kpopquotesandlyrics @ tumblr.)
Heyyyyyyy.
Today was awesome.
Cause I had alot of fun.
Am uploading photos up on facebook now. Check them out soon.
Bye! :D

355; No longer an obsession, it became LOVE.

2010-05-19T19:52:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Updates.)
Hey.
Right now, the obsession for Big Bang is no longer just an obsession but love. I really don't understand myself too. I can't seem to find the suitable to blog, so I'm going to end it off here.
Bye!!!

I LOVE BIG BANG ^v^ !!!!!

354; Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.

2010-05-18T22:25:00.006+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Updates.)
Hey.
Today was awesome.
Firstly, I had a 14 hours sleep.
Secondly, the outing today was awesome.
Thirdly, I am happy.
:)
HEHEH!
Byeeeeeee.

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY DONG YOUNG BAE OPPA!!!!!
생일 22 번째 생일 동영배 오빠!!!!!
You are awesome! I love your solo songs! And of course Big Bang's too!
Do continue being as bright as a sun and bring warmth to us, V.I.Ps. ^v^!
(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)

353; Tell Me Goodbye.

2010-05-17T17:25:00.006+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Updates.)
SUP.
Didn't sleep the entire day.
On and off cramps the entire night.
Awesome.
Just watched finish Brilliant Legacy not long ago.
Catch it :)
AND YESSSSSSSSSS!

BIG BANG'S TELL ME GOODBYE IS OUT.
SO IS THE MV.
ITS SO FUCKING AWESOME ^v^

BYE! Here's the video:

352; We may not know each other well, but we know each other well enough to know what's wrong :)

2010-05-16T16:40:00.001+08:00

(Credits: Anyone :x. Forgot where I took it ://)
Heyhey.
I noticed that my blog is soooooooo Big Bang overload ^o^
But who cares~
Heheh!
Feeling so sick now.
Eeeeeeeee @ menses.
Guys really got to learn how to appreciate girls well.
They suffer every month man! :(
Done ranting.
Yeah, a short rant only :D
Hahah, rotted at home the whole day = BORING..
HEHEH. Byeeeeee.

Craving for Pizzahut now.

351; Always waiting for you, all day I pray for you.

2010-05-15T19:59:00.005+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Updates.)
HEY!
THIS PICTURE SUPER AWESOME MAN. THEY LOOK OMFG HOT LA.
HAHAHAH.
HAHAHAHAH!
MUM RAIN BIASED. I TELL HER TAE YANG AND JAY PARK BODY CAN COMPETE WITH RAIN SHE KEEP SAY RAIN BODY BEST. HAHAH.
NOT FAIR.
NOT FAIR.
NOT FAIR.
NOT FAIR.
KAYS, I SUPER HIGH NOW.
HAHAH.
GETTING WHITE BERRY OR LOLLIPOP ^^
ALRIGHTS.
HAD AN AWESOME DAY TODAY.
BYE!!!!!!!!!

350; Listen, everything happens for a reason, everything happens for a reason.

2010-05-14T19:23:00.005+08:00

(Credits: kpopquotesandlyrics@tumblr.)
HEYHEY!
I have nothing to blog today.
Basically I just watch the tv, read ficts, surf the net and go fangirl-ing.
Nothing much today :/
Alrights! I shall upload a few super cool G-Dragon picture.
And then I'm done uploading. Maybe a better update tomorrow? :)

(Credits: Big Bang VIP Updates.)

OHOH! And one more thing that made my day today!
This is it!

World Asia – Hottest 30 Top Ranked Artists.

1.TVXQ
2.Super Junior
3. Rain
4. Wonder Girls
5. Big Bang
6. SS501
7. FT.island
8. Xing
9. Super Nova
10 . SHINee
11 . Kattun
12 . Boa
13 . Epik High
14 . NEWS
15 . Lollipop
16 . Fahrenheit
17 . Seven
18 . So Nyeo Shi Dae
19 . Arashi
20 . U-kiss
21 . Zhang Li Yin
22 . Cheon Sang Ji Hee The Grace
23 . 2pm
24 . Teppei
25 . Hay ! Say ! Jump
26 . Battle
27 . Paran
28 . Kara
29 . Yaya yah!
30 . Jay Chou , X-JAPAN

BIG BANG JUST PWN SHINee AND SNSD. SO WHAT IF THEY ARE CONSIDERED MOST HANDSOME/PRETTY IN SINGAPORE.
BIG BANG STILL BEAT THEM INTERNATIONALLY. :P

349; 두눈을 감아 두귀를 막아 우리가 지켜줄께. (Close your 2 eyes and block your 2 ears. We'll protect you.)

2010-05-13T20:57:00.002+08:00

(Credit: Big Bang Updates.)
HEY!
Ton-ed till 5am and off to sleep to 3pm.
Watching Brilliant Legacy is super dramatic! Okays, its a drama after all.
HEHEHEH.
Well, I don't know what to blog today.
Since I have no life.
Alrights!
BYE BYE!

I LOVE BIG BANG!
The only band I love as a group. Hehehs.

348; Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by smiles, not tears.

2010-05-12T11:57:00.004+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Updates.)

HEY. EXAM'S OFFICIALLY OVER. NO SCHOOL FOR 6 DAYS!!! :D

TEEHEE. BYEEEEEE

I LOVE BIG BANG.

~~Edit this later :)~~
Sup. I'm back for and update.
An awesome update..
Nah, I'm just joking.
So as stated, Mid Year Examination is officially over! :D
I'm hell happy. Never been happy before just because an exam has ended. Maybe yes, when I was in P6.
But yeah, its been super STRESSFUL studying for MYE.
YEAH. I CAN FINALLY GO FANDOM LIKE CRAZY ALREADY ^^.
Like really crazy. You'll never guess how crazy I can go.
Maybe you will.
Alrights, waiting for SGB now! ^^
BYE!

347; 5 May 2010.

2010-05-05T18:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY SUNNY NG AND TAN SIANG SENG!
All the best to both of you :) And yeah, God blesses you with good results with the upcoming exams, :)

346; Life is pretty; pretty unfair, pretty crazy, pretty hard. But still pretty good (:

2010-05-03T16:14:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Tumblr.)
HEY YO! :D
If you're smart enough you will know what song is the lyric in the picture :)
Alrights, I'm going on hiatus till exams are over which is 12 May 2010!
I'll be online and be updating my twitter always :)
So you can check them out ^^
Bye!
And oh,

Happy 200th Day Beast :)
Hwaiting!

345; Silence is a girls loudest cry.

2010-05-01T23:41:00.005+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Updates.)
Hey, my internet connection suck alot now. Grrrrrrrrr.
Hate it la!!!! Why so lag :@ :@ :@
Somehow, its so slow. And I don't know why suckish.
Today was pretty awesome.
There's someone who's so retarded! HA HA HA.
Apparently, she's the joke of the day. Poor thing :(
I shall pity you. Awwwwwwwwww.
Idk what to update now. Seriously..
I couldn't think of anything, I just know today was pretty funny.
And awesome, there's so many V.I.P. K, not many. But some ^^
JiYong biased..
Alrights! BYE :D

First, I don't like you for being rude. Second, you're being a total ass for saying YG Entertainment for something they didn't do. Third, I hate your oh-so-loyal attitude. Fourth, rude ass. Fifth, you're so slow -.-. Sixth, in SNSD everybody dance. Seventh, weirdo. Eight, YOU SUCK :D
1)You scolded them for nothing. How can they update when they're outside?
2)Hyunsueng is not under YG. He just auditioned for them and was REJECTED. HE. WAS. NEVER. INSIDE. YG. YOU. SUCKA.
3)Please don't act as if you're oh so loyal to BEAST. Don't tell me you never liked other band -.-.
4)You don't have to ask someone whether they are a girl or guy. -.-
5)For god sake, it was a joke.
6)Everybody in SNSD dances.
7)You don't like managers, you like the idols. -.-
8)No reason why :)

[Edit]
Opps! Forgot to post Happy Birthday for ~~boyfriend~~nephew. Heheheh.
Nah, don't have a boyfriend. He's just a nephew. Cute right! :D
Here it is :)

Happy 12th Birthday Nephew Simson Ong! :D
HEHEHEHEH. Must pass your PSLE okays ^^

344; With friends, sadness is out of mind.

2010-04-30T20:27:00.005+08:00

(Credits: Asianfanatics.)
Suppie sup! :D
GDYB moments are the best ^^.
They've been close friends since 13 and going. Because of them, I believe true friendship do exists. I used not to believe. Because, friendships usually ends with you drifting with the other or a very unpleasant ending. Well, I believe my friendship with certain people will last. While others I don't really bother, if they themselves don't make an effort into the friendship, then what's the point of me hanging on? It's very tiring. Super tiring. I'm only 15. There's so much more to learn from life. I will stay strong just to move on, I don't want to linger around anymore. Cause its pretty tiring to do so. I know I can do it. Yeah!
Robiaatul Hwaiting!
MYE in like, 6 more days. I shall start revising now. I know its not too late. Cause, even if I started earlier, I'll forget everything by now. Heheheh. Going out tomorrow. Studying ss tomorrow ^^. Hope it'll turn out successful! Alrights, bye :D

343; I'm strong enough to walk away, but broken enough to look back.

2010-04-29T19:40:00.002+08:00

(Credits: Big Bang Updates.)
Hey. So an update again?
Been updating for the almost the whole month.
Okays, its everyday except for 2nd April 2010.
And I don't know why, this month has pretty been ups and downs.
More ups I must say :)
Wow, I love kpop more and more :)
I want to work, really work ://
So I can save money and at least know how its like to earn my own money and spend it :D
But I doubt mum will allow..
Shall study hard now for mye :)
Alrights! Bye :D

Girl, I know you want to know everything. But its impossible. Never try to fit in, cause it irks us :D

342; Why can't life just be simply simple and happy?

2010-04-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

(Credits: Asianfanatics. I think.)
Hey yo.

MOTHER TONGUE PAPER 1 AND 2 SCREWED ^^

Happy yo, cause mother tongue paper is seriously hard.
Super hard, I must say. Urgh, screw ://
After school went to East Point with 2 crazy bitches ^^
Had super real fun and gossip talks. Wait, did we have any gossip talk? Hahah.
Heheheh.
Alrights! Bye :D
WOOHOO! THIS PIC IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! THE TOP PIC I MEAN ^^.
Bye! Off to do poa hwk.

341; Smile that struggles through tears are beautiful.

2010-04-27T15:01:00.007+08:00

(Credits: Asianfanatics?)
HEYHEY
Today's the start of mye.
Screw english Paper 2. Paper 1 was not bad ^^.
Cause.............
There's JiYong name in my essay ^^
Heeheheheh, whatever. I'm not obsess with him, I'm just in love with him.
Alrights! Bye people. I need to edit yesterday's post saying Happy Birthday to Dae Sung!
Was pretty busy last night. Shall edit now ^^
HEHEHE. BYEEEEEEEEE! :D

Did this on tumblr ^^v. Kpop ftw :D
1) Open up your library (iPod, Winamp, iTunes, etc.)

2) Put it on shuffle

3) Press play

4) For each question, type in what song is playing

5) Hit next for each question

Here goes everything.

———————————————————————————————————

1. What do people assume when they first look at me?

I Hope - F.T Island (I hope they'll have good impression of me ^^)

2. What will be a big challenge in life for me?
SHINee World - SHINee (Living in the reality world, cause SHINee world is fantasy you see. ^^)

3. Am I a good boyfriend/girlfriend?

Give It To Me - U-Kiss (It means yes. :D)

4. Do I have a Secret Admirer?

A Fool Full Of Tears - Big Bang (Omg, that person is such a fool! I'm married already man :///)

5. Will I ever become manically depressed in my life?

Missing You - F.T Island (Yes, when I miss you.)

7. Is someone trying to kill me?

Bang Bang Bang - U-Kiss (Come on, kill me ^^)

8. What is my sexual preference?

Strong Baby ft G-Dragon - Seung Ri (Heheh, as strong as Kwon Ji Yong ^^)

9. What am I afraid of?

Bo Peep Bo Peep - T-Ara (Hmmmmmm, the hand dance.)

10. What will I be doing in a few years?

Bodyguard - SHINee (Heheh, I'll beat people up ^^)

11. What is some good advice for me?

Amigo - SHINee (Hello? HAHAHA)

12. What should I do instead of this quiz?

After Love - F.T Island (Idk how link this x.x)

13. Will you get married?

Marshmallow- IU (Already married ^^, no point asking this question ^^)

14. What is the story of your life?

Confession Of A Friend - 2AM (Hahahahah, I confessed to my friend, and my friend confess to me, then we become les ^^)

15. How can you get ahead in life?

So I'm Loving You - Various Artiste (Forget about you and love others? :D)

16. What is the best thing about your friends?

Heartbeat - 2PM (Them being here by my side like how my heart need heartbeat to survive.)
17. What song describes you?

Intro - Big Bang (Hmmmmmm, Ji Yong introduced me to Big Bang as his wife and not friend (L))

18. How does the world see you?

Look At Me, Gwi Soon - Dae Sung (Yes, look at me bitches. Fuck you -'- HEHEHEH. And to my friends,

19. Will you have a happy life?

Dancing Floor - U-Kiss (I will have, no matter whether the answer has link to the question ^^)

20. How can I make myself happy?

Oh Ma Baby - Big Bang (Yes. Listening to Big Bang ^^)

21. What should you do with your life?

SHINee Girl - SHINee

(Be a SHINee girl? But I don't want. I'm faithful to Kwon Ji Yong :D)

22. Will you ever have children?

A Good Man - Big Bang (Only good people deserve kids, just like me :D)

[Edit]

I LOVE MEIJI CHOCOLATE MILK ^^
Myself, Kwon Ji Yong, Big Bang, Family, God and Friends too!

[/Edit]

340; G-Dragon, the name goes beyond a trend and becomes a brand.

2010-04-26T22:18:00.004+08:00

(Credits: Asianfanatics.)
HEY.
Went keyboard warrior-ing just now.
HEHEH. was suffering in the afternoon.
Feel so much better now ^^
BYE!

GOOD LUCK FOR MYE~

I (L) Kwon Ji Yong and Big Bang!!!!

(Credits: Pictures; Asianfanatics, Big Bang Updates, Big Bang Haven and Google. Editing: Me.)
Sorry for the late wish, oppa :/
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DAESUNG OPPA!!!! :D
생일 21 번째 생일 강대성 오빠!!!
I love you and Big Bang alot! :D
(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)

339; Hi, my name is Robiaatul and I'd like you to meet Kwon Ji Yong, my husband.♥

2010-04-25T17:58:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Google for G-Dragon Picture, Chelsia for the editing ^^.)
Hey, short update.
I love my blog post title, I love my blog post picture for this post ^^.
And most importantly I love Kwon Ji Yong and Big Bang ^^.
Bye.

338; Real friends do not assume nor believe rumours about you. Real friends will always stand by your side.

2010-04-24T12:24:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Asianfanatics.)
Heyheyhey.
I'm going out later, So I'll blog later.
Heheheh.
Time Check: 12.38am, 25 April.
Hey again. Back home 1 hour ago or so.
Here to update.
Went to meet Callista. Went to PS and then to Suntec.
Then meet my parents at Coca Restaurant at Takashimiya.
Homed.
Bought Big Bang magazine and loving it ^^
Bye.

Going to update in the afternoon later. Time to sleep! Bye :D

337; A real friend would stab in the front. A true/best friend would help you clean it up.

2010-04-23T17:02:00.003+08:00

I promise to be here for you, best friend. ^^
(Credits: Tumblr)
SUP. So many things happening around. But the best thing among all the things happening make me know who is my true friend. And who's not. Somehow, I've changed. I'm no longer the old Robiaatul you know. :D I'm still happy, I'm still vulgar, I'm still fat, I'm still loud, I'm still weird and so on. But, I've changed to a better person. To me, I've changed. I'm no longer that very hot-tempered girl I used to be, I'm no longer naive and I hardly give a damn to everything. (eg. People backstabbing me, I won't care.) I ~~used~~ to care.
Maybe, at this point of life now, I understand how this world works. Maybe, I have grown ^^. I no longer want troubles, I no longer have that 'feeling' to create trouble. I just want to concentrate on my studies, and chasing after idols. Bye :)

1) Oh, bitch. You're in no wrong. We're the ones who accused you ^^. We got nothing to do. We just love accusing don't we? Yeah. I agree to. Heheh. I am going to hide in my cave now cause I'm scared ^^. Bye.
2)Oh my! Chio bu! :D I love you! Well, sorry for the sarcasm. :( Do forgive me. Oh, are you fucked? You seemed to be fucked by the way you're walking. Opps, I'm sorry. :( Forgive me yeah. And ohhhhhhhh. Don't accuse others for stealing your things yeah ^^. They're innocent. :)

336; True friendship: One of the best examples of a growing relationship, Love and all crazy memories.

2010-04-22T16:17:00.005+08:00

(Credits: AsianFanatics.)
Sup yo!
I am so happy these days!
Family, ~~school~~Friends, Very Good Friends, Studies some and Idols. (May it be song, videos or ficts. Its great.)
Happy to be me these days :)
Passed my NAPFA.
PE yesterday was awesome for a reason.
She was fucked. I think.
Videos to make me laugh ^^, ficts for me to be in. Close friends to bitch with.
Wow, this month is like okok.
Only for one thing, which happened last month.
And going to settle tomorrow? Oh, maybe next week.
I don't know?
Hahah, can't be bothered.
As long as I have what I need, is more than enough ^^
Bye!
Shall end with a G-Dragon video.

AWESOME VIDEO.

335; Smile more. It's the thing that could make darker days seem bright.

2010-04-21T22:35:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Anyone who took it. :D)
Heyhey.
I'm so in love with Kwon Ji Yong.
And I don't know why.
Something about him just attracts me ^^.
Heheheh, loving him (L).
Well, school was alright! Damn, going to get my pink card.
I don't know whether it's a good thing or not.
On one hand, it seems so cool to have a pink card in your wallet, but on the other hand it seems that I grew older. :(
Sighs!
I'm done blogging.
So tired after strenuous exercise. *doing poa and a short chem cheat sheet*
So hell tired, shall sleep early :D
HEHEH.

334; Dear my heart.. Please fall in love with someone who deserves your love, not someone who plays with it.

2010-04-20T18:13:00.003+08:00

(Credits: My camera.)
Hey, brb.
Dinner :D
Okays, back.
During dinner, was completely a joke.
I proposed a deal to my brother. The fat one.
If he can beat me in my PSLE aggregate I'll treat mac.
HAHAHAH.
Joke man~~~
Anyways, school today was awesome.
Mrs Yap and Ms Huda didn't came.
POA was quite difficult to understand, but nevertheless I still understood.
Heheh, shall revise later after my Big Bang Video Spam! :D
Which I name it BBVS. So if you see me typing it, it means Big Bang Video Spam! HURRAY.
BYE! :D

333; To love, and to be hurt often, and to love again - this is the brave and happy life.

2010-04-19T18:04:00.004+08:00

(Credits: Me. Me. Me. Me.)
Heyheyhey! :D
I love this picture. So nice. Got Big Bang!!! :D
See Kwon Ji Yong that name?
Wah, he's mine. So please back off.
School was ok today.
I am at the stage of a crazy fangirl whereby, I will just hit anybody who insult Big Bang! :(
Heheheh.
Byebye. Tuition later. Rawr.

332; A girl won't cry easily, except in front of the person she loves the most.. she becomes weak.

2010-04-18T18:44:00.003+08:00

(Credits: AsianFanatics.)
Hey yo!
See how sexy Big Bang is?
You just got to love them~
Omg, my kfc dinner is coming!
Mum's spoiling me with fastfood. Grrrr, I'll grow fat.
And oh, I hate Lee Hyo Ri alot :D
I don't care already what other people think of her. I hate her :D
Heheh, Chelsia and Karmahn knows why.
Heheh!
BYE.

Oh, rotted at home :D

331; The past is for inspiration, not imitation, for continuation, not repetition

2010-04-17T16:48:00.003+08:00

(Credits: Please tell me who to credit! Cause I saved them and made them into a collage!)
HEYHEYHEY.
I just watch finish lots of videos on YOUTUBE.
And yes, they're all Big Bang related!
Heheh, head over heels for them.
And it seems that I will keep on melting. Especially G-Dragon's part.
Why? Cause he's my hubby.
And I hate this star.
She dance so intimidating with my hubby in one of the video! :@
BYE!
Hungry.

330; I can't promise to fix all your problems, but I can promise you won't have to face them alone.

2010-04-16T11:54:00.006+08:00

(Credits: Tumblr.)
Hey.
Skipped school today as there's only like 2 hours of school? Hahahah.
Had Mac Breakfast.
Talking about it.
I bought the Pig Doraemon, and forgot to take it out.
Therefore, its being thrown into the Dustbin. T.T.
There goes my Pig Doraemon.
God! Sorry Dae Sung Oppa! :(
$2 lei! Hais, suan le ba.
Going to have tuition later. Sian ttm?
Ha ha ha.
Bye! :D

329; Love makes us all a little weaker, but in the end we all turn out a little stronger.

2010-04-15T16:08:00.006+08:00

(Credits: My Camera.)
Heyheyhey.
School was pretty ok.
Headed home after school.
Damn hell tired even though I tried sleeping early during school days. Its not working.
I have been reading ficts this days.
Practically, everyday. And I'm drowning myself into the world of fantasy more and more.
It's so damn hell awesome. Its just that few fict. But I kept re-reading it everyday, how awesome is that? Awesome. HAHAH.
I really do not want to wake up from it, its like being away from all the painful reality. Living in the fantasy world, in my very own imagination. Everything just goes smoothly, just go as what I wanted it to be like. Isn't that fucking hell awesome? Yes. It is that fucking awesome.
TEEHEE.
I shall remain like that, but shall at least come back to reality ONCE IN A WHILE.
Note that, its ONCE IN A WHILE.
Heheh, ok. I read too much fanfict. And now typing like one?
LOL.
Bye!

Sole property of Kwon Ji Yong. Back off.

[Edit]
Changed blogskin. Currently loving it.
Still has the minor problem of cutting down the archive. But I don't care.
So sexy right. And you love it right? I know, cause I love it too :D
HEHEHE.
[/Edit]

328; Sometimes you just move on. Just so someday he'll look back and say, "No, wait, I really love you."

2010-04-14T18:21:00.004+08:00

(Credits: Photobucket I guess.)
Sup.
Today's assembly is fun. Apparently my class just kept on high-ing.
Heheheh, social studies is boring, and idk why.
I just feel like sleeping in class.
LOL.
Cravings for food here and then.
I guess its the monthly thing that's coming? HAHAH
Let's see.
Anyways.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 15th WONG CHUN HUA. :D
-Support Mao Zhi Dong all the way yeah :D