Hey. It seems like I'm an emo nemo these days, and I have no idea what I to do to be happy again. It seems like, I've changed but I have no idea whether I've changed to the better or worst. All I know is that, ever since I know you, I've become very dependent to you, and it felt as though I can't live without you and eventually I lost myself in this process. I hate being dependent on somebody as when they leave, I have no idea what to do anymore and it felt as though some part of me are missing. I hate how I am right now, but I have no idea what to do to make myself feel better other than going out with you or talking to you. What Callista told me was right, guys like you are all the same. Then when I'm trying my best to forget you, the dreams I have about you just make it all worst, making me miss and think of you more. But what can I do? All I can do is NOTHING. Because I know, hoping and wishing brings me nowhere else. Why do I even bother typing all these out? Oh, it just shows how much you really mean to me. Forget it, it won't make any difference. I've been waiting for your text message, but it'll never reach me. All the promises, all the things you said, was a bunch of lies.
except for the part, you'll be the person I love now and in the near future because I do.
Okay, I get it. I'm good to be used, lied to and play with. Thank you for proving all these to me. I'm just someone that everybody replaces after a while. What's the point of prioritizing people when I don't mean anything to them? #noted.
